My little Ruby is turning into a Girl
I never quite understood why parents get sad when their babies grow up. BUT over the last few days/months I TOTALLY get it. I mean I definitely like that Ruby can do more things on her own but my sweet little baby is turning into a girl and a part of me is a teeny sad. I see it everyday - she's always been independent but now she is on fire, curious about the world and her place in it. And she has no fear and doesn't give up - I mean, I want to be her! There isn't a day that goes by that I'm not in complete wonder of this tiny human. I still look at Edward at least twice a week and say, "How is the perfect person our daughter? Like for reals?"
I have been so lucky to have all this extra time with Ruby the last few months. Honestly things really do happen for a reason. If I hadn't been laid off, I would have missed out on so many amazing moments with her. Just everyday moments that give you little clues into her growing personality. Some days you can actually see what she's going to be like as she gets older. It's a really weird feeling because you're excited for what's ahead but also sad that it's happening so fast and afraid there isn't enough time to savor it all.
It can be overwhelming at times. Motherhood is a trip. I honestly had NO idea. I was already pretty sentimental, but with Ruby I'm just beyond. I'm ok with it though, because well I can't really change that about me and it just means I'm letting myself feel all the feels. Which honestly have been nothing short of magical. Love you Boo Boo.